I've come to realize...

I've come to realize my blog...

is never going to be much to look at or read, but it gets my wheels turning, and my wheels tend to squeak!

I've come to realize that when I'm driving...

I'm one of the few on the road who knows what she's doing. Even if I am swaying my head and singing at the top of my lungs! P.S. Please stay out of the left lane if you're not going to pass or drive about 10 miles over the speed limit. Your driver's ed book clearly states, the left lane is for passing only...not joy riding!

I've come to realize that I need...

to humble myself regularly.

I've come to realize my heart...

is stronger than I thought.

I've come to realize that I hate...

hatred because it usually follows ignorance.

I've come to realize that money...

while I love spending it, truly is the root of all evil. Money will never fill the sweet spots of my heart that my family, and friends fill so beautifully.

I've come to realize that my job...

is important to always be something I love to do. No matter how much money you make it's not worth it if you're miserable. Sometimes we make ourselves miserable, and that just means an attitude adjustment is in order. My career in nursing has blessed me tremendously so far. Whether it be that I was able to be a blessing to someone, or that I learned something valuable from someone.

I've come to realize that my body...

is a testy little booger! I've come to respect it, and by that I mean I take care of it. Skinny has never been described about my body, and I've come to terms with that.

I've come to realize that I really want to win...

about 50K dollars...that's all. I mean I'd take more, but that's all I need.

I've come to realize that this weekend...

may not go according to my plan, and I'm okay with that.

I've come to realize that I need...

my God. I am so weak without him. On a Earthly level I need the kisses from my children (or the cheek Brynn lends me to kiss), the "I love you's" from my husband, the quiet days for renewal, and coffee.

I've come to realize that I've lost...

my need to please certain people. I was once so burdened with this, and it was quite refreshing to let that go.

I've come to realize that certain people...

will never change so I don't expect them to, are hard to be around so I avoid them, annoy me so I ignore them, and hate me so I hate them. Just kidding I was just checking to see if you were paying attention. I get terribly upset when people dislike me, but I'm trying to learn that not everyone will like me.

I've come to realize that in the kitchen...

I should not be.

I've come to realize that I like...

a nice car, and there's nothing wrong with that.

I've come to realize that I'm addicted to...

my camera. All I want to do is take pictures, I feel like everything looks beautiful on the other end of the lens.

I've come to realize that I will always remember...

the day my dad left. I was five years old, but I remember every detail.

I've come to realize that my siblings...

are for better or for worse. And that's typically for my better or worse. My brother and sister mean more to me than they probably know. It's an incredible feeling to know that no matter what they will ALWAYS be there for me. When I realized this, is when I realized Madeline needed/deserved a sibling.

I've come to realize that life...

is going to happen whether I want it to or not. I feel like days are just flying by me now. I know my friends will chuckle when they read: I'm afraid of my 30's!!

I've come to realize the best music to listen to when I'm upset...

is the music I can't stand but to sing to. If I'm singing I'm happy. My mind, body, and soul has no choice.

I've come to realize that my friends...

will come and go, but the precious few will hold on. I desire to be the best friend I possibly can be.

I've come to realize that this year...

so far is better than the last. I can just feel it. Although we started it out with Brynn in the hospital, there's just something about it that feels promising.

I've come to realize that my husband...

is who he is. That 's what I love about him. He'll change for no one, put on for no one, and do whatever he can for anyone. He's my best friend. Anyone who can put up with me is positively amazing.

I've come to realize that maybe I should...

go back to school. I'm not one to let things defeat me. FNP school...here I come!

I've come to realize that I really don't understand...

alot! I really could go on and on here. I don't understand why people smoke in cars with their children. Why people say they're Baptist, but they're Liberal. Why bad things happen to good people. Why my husband can't get a job. Why people decide drugs or suicide is the option. Why some people think a "fetus" with a heartbeat isn't a child. Why....well I'm going to stop.

I've come to realize that my past...

is bittersweet. I feel like of all the "bad" things have good linked to them in some way. Even though it was years down the road before I could view good in them, I'm glad it all happened to me and made me me.

I've come to realized that my life...

is.....well I'm not going to say perfect, but it's darn near close.